Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Crazy Love, Compelled by Love.... Gods love!!!

I’ve been preparing for my trip and to do so I’ve been reading some great books! Some of them are required for the Harvest School and some are not! I have extra reading time at work (apparently when school starts back nobody goes to the pool!), so I’ve read Crazy Love and Heidi Bakers book Compelled by Love. Both are such amazing books, they have changed my heart and will change my life! Crazy Love speaks strongly about how Christians are really supposed to live! How we have become complacent, lazy, selfish, half-hearted followers of God. It gives lots of great verses of what Jesus really meant when He asked people to follow Him and how we can change our lives in order to store up real treasures in Heaven, where it matters! And the book by Heidi Baker talks about how to learn from children and the poor, how to have innocent beautiful faith, and to hunger and thirst for God the way we should! We are all really desperate for God deep down, in America we have so much stuff and money and distractions that we don’t even realize how hungry we are and should be for God! They get it! And we need to learn fro them :). It teaches about what real love really is! Gods love for us and how He will fill us up to overflowing so we spill out on all others! So these books are really preparing my heart, soul, and spirit for loving and serving the poor, orphans, needy, and learning more and more about my God and His love! Both of them are amazingly filled with stories and Biblical truths about LOVE! I’ve also been looking into all I’ll need to bring (apparently I am going to be especially thankful for peanut butter and toilet paper!), and all the funds I am going to need! Plane tickets are ridiculously expensive when your flying halfway across the world… no doubt its partly due to all those nasty plane meals they constantly wake you up for ever 2 hours or so… anyways I (despite the 3 jobs I’ve worked this summer to save up!) am still short and trusting God to provide because I know He is soo faithful!!! If any of you asks the Lord and feels led to send me a lil help ;) ha ha you could send a check to –
1760 N. Bass Dr. Mt.Juliet TN, 37122
And if you ask the Lord how He wants you to support me and He says pray! Spiritual warfare is soo important! I know that I am going to need so much support spiritually, and also protection from the enemy who would love to steal all that God has for me! There are a lot of sicknesses there that are common and I would love your prayers for health and healing! Ha ha there is so much! But God is so much bigger than all else that I already know He has it taken care of! I know your prayers will help fight those spiritual battles that will most definitely be taking place! I pray for all of you, for peace, rest, deep love, that Gods face will shine on you, that He will be gracious to you, that He will bless you and keep you, and pour His spirit into your heart constantly :) I love you all!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Confirmation

So when I first heard about the Harvest School of missions in Mozambique I knew it would be an amazing thing to be a part of! Since then I have for one reason or another tried to write it off as not a possibility. I tried to look into other options but the Lord kept drawing me back to Mozambique… And not because it is on the beach… ha ha, its actually going to be there summer time when I am there so its going to upward of 100 degrees during the day and about 90 or more at night… with absolutely no AC at any time! Haha I am a little nervous about sleeping in the heat, seeing as when I was in Haiti we had to sleep with no AC and it was nearly impossible! If you roll to where any part of your body, like one leg touching the other, is touching any other part of your body, you sweat profusely ☺ haha, I am hopeful that the electricity will allow me to use a fan at night, but there is no guarantee of this! So it was definitely the Lord who keps brining my attention back to this school! A few of the reasons I was trying to find other options were ones like, that my closest friend when I was little is getting married, like 10 days after I leave for Africa! And my brother and his wife are having an amazing baby boy (Daniel Steven Thomas!) about 2 weeks after I leave! So I figured that because God values family and friends maybe I should stay! But then I read some verses and read some chapters in Crazy Love, that expressed to me that the most important thing to God is serving Him and His suffering people, and that it requires sacrifice on our part to obey! That we must think of the life to come more than the one were in, and storing treasures in heaven by doing Gods will, and being passionate about the things that His heart is passionate about is so much more important than anything here on this temporary earth! Then one night at Emanate (the young adult group at Grace Center church in Franklin) the teacher talked about the Hedi Baker school that I had been thinking about a lot! And about all the miracles, the healings, the people being saves and the lives being transformed! I knew I had to look more into it! Just hearing about those things got me so excited and I asked the Lord how I could be involved in His great works! And I heard “GO”…. To Mozambique…. Wow! I wanted to go so badly! Then soon after I had a dream that I told my friend I couldn’t be here for her wedding because of the school, and she said it was really okay, and even helped even out the wedding party because she had more brides maids than her man had groomsmen! But when I woke up and talked to my Mom about it I was quickly reminded how she reacted when I asked the date of her wedding earlier in the summer, and she had responded with something like… “Hannah Bates! You have to be in my wedding! You cant run off to Africa and save babies while Im getting married!” hahaha… kinda discouraging for me thinking about telling her… mean while I apply for the school and get accepted! I’ve been working 3 jobs all summer to save up for whatever God had for me next (unfortunately some of this $ had unexpected destinations due to surprises like needing my wisdom teeth removed!). Apparently I wasn’t trusting my God enough to believe in how He gives us dreams for a reason and speaks through them often! I was nervous about telling my friend because I didn’t want to disappoint her! I kept facebooking her, texting her and such saying we should get to gether soon, and I was planning on telling her then… well we are both very busy girls and it didn’t workout for about a month! Finally God got my attention in a dream that basically said if I didn’t get on stuff (telling my friend, confirming with the school… getting my flight scheduled!) then I was going to miss all that He has for me this fall at the school! So realizing this I started calling my friend, and getting things together for my trip! I also asked Him if I was ready for this spiritually, and how I want to know and utilize my spiritual gifts more for His kingdom! He clearly told me that in Mozambique I will learn more about and how to use my spiritual gifts, another tid bit – my Mom has always felt the Lord telling her that prophesy was something God is going to use me for! Sooo…. Next I leave my friend a message telling her to call me soon! The next day I call her again….etc. I’m finally getting ready to leave her a voice mail saying something like, hey I’m going to Africa instead of being in your wedding! Okay bye! Hahaha to my Moms extreme disapproval… I didn’t do that yet ☺. Later that night while I was just getting to sleep… my phone rings! I roll over and see her name… I think…. Well should I answer it?! Im not really in the best of sorts for this kind of conversation! Plus I didn’t have the note I had written to help me say the right things instead of whatever absurd things came to mind! Hahaha, but I felt the Lords peace, and Him saying just answer and I’ll help you… so I did! She led me right into it by saying that she had been soo busy, doing things that she had wanted to do, and that at our age it’s the best time to do these things in our hearts! Haha I was like well yeah! And started telling her about the school… then I told her when it was! Silence for a second… scared Hannah… then overwhelming support from her! Excited for me and telling me that she felt its what God had for me and that she knew I would go back to Africa sometime! Then (the kicker) she says that she was already 2 up on her hubby to be in brides maids so it evens things out! Wow God! Just like you said in my dream…. Huh, turns out God knows what He’s talking about and I should trust Him! hahaha… as many times as He has taught me this, I still need reminding! Then at church a couple days later a friend comes up to ask about my trip to Africa… and says that she really thinks God is going to use my time there to bring out more prphicy in me! Wow! Confirmation couldn’t be stronger ☺. Also the Lord has spoken to me about some healing I need, and made me feel like I would receive more of that in Mozambique, then a friend of mine who has met Heidi Baker tells me that the love of God is so strong in her that when your around her the perfecting, HEALING love of God just exudes and healing simply happens! Wow…. Neadless to say I am very excited about this trip that God has planned for me! And how He has confirmed His will that I go and be changed!

Friday, August 6, 2010

Mozambique!!!!

I have been accepted to Heidi Bakers Harvest school of missions in Mozambique Africa! And I am thrilled! This will be such an awesome learning experience... preperation for my future, and streatching of me spiritually! I will be taking classes and learning a whole lot, as well as involved in helping with the orphanage and school Iris Ministries has there! I will be leaving on October 17th hopefully and return around December 21st! I could really use all the prayers of my friends and family that I earn/raise enough money to go! And to come back! haha the plane tickets will be expensive! The actual cost of teh school is only about 2,500 and that covers my food, place to live/sleep, and all the classes for 3 months! But the air fare is going to be about 1,500! So please join me in prayer askin gfor the Lords help to raise all of this money! Also please pray with me for preperation spiritually! That my faith would grow bigger and stronger as I get ready to go and do as He has called me to! I am so excited to go and serve those people! To do exactly what the Bible tells me to do which I have out lined in verses in a lot of my previous blogs! I have reciently through talking about the Lord and the passions he has given, with Joshua, discovered a little bit of why I love it so much.... I love when the Lord relveals to you things about yourself you didnt realize before! And when He uses ithers in your life to do that! Ahhhh its just amazing! So we were talking about the secret things of God the Bible talks about... the things we have to search and seek out about Him and His kingdome, and even ourselves, that He only shows us when we really look deeper into Him! And I was saying how I believe that the desire to serve others and help those who need it so desperately is such a huge part of Gods heart and how He repeatedly tells us to do this in His word! So I think that when people have that desire, it means they are seeking God and He has shown Him a part of His heart for the poor, orphans, and all those people in such distress! Then we talked about how some people might do it just for the good feeling, or the look of it, or because their family does... instead of the true deep calling and drive from their relationship with the Lord our God! And then we discussed how we all have different callings, different strengths and weaknesses.... different paterns/tendancies of our flesh, I know that one of my fleshly tendancies/weaknesses is selfishness... I know that a lot of people struggle with this also, but I have known this about myself and been fighting it and asking the Lord to change my heart there! Then it hit me! - (God spoke!) saying that, that is the reason! Thats part of why I love so much and am so satisfied when I serve others and treat them as more important than myself... help them! Because it is exactly the opposite of my flesh! My sinful nature says "its all about me" so when I go directly against that and serve others as better than me and love them as I do myself it is sooo right.... its what God is telling me to do, to oppose my sinful selfishness....! :) so that made me really happy and still is! Because thats exactly what I want to always be doing - fighting my sinful, fleshly nature - to serve my God better and glorify the beautiful name of - JESUS!