Sunday, April 17, 2011


Lately the enemy has attacked me with discouragement, hopelessness, worry and anxiety, fear, lack of motivation, shame, sadness… mostly about my future, the life He has for me to live that I am afraid of messing up, making wrong choices…etc. I’ve been praying for Gods guidance and direction, to help me, teach me, my attitudes and thoughts, the big decisions and the little! To help me over come the times of testing and hardship, temptation, to persevere, have an undivided heart, not be polluted by the world, pure in heart – see God, faithful, disciplined, to chose and love good and hate evil, to be strong, securely unshakable in my Jesus, mature, self controlled, having peace, intimacy with God, rest through my storms, to chose according to Holy Spirit in every moment!
I have had this for a few weeks so there are many ways God has taught me and helped me to over come! There are no coincidences in the Kingdom of God, He has used all kinds of people (friends, family, Joshua), moments, songs, His word, my times with Him, church…. He has said –
Humble yourself to be free… proverbs 6
In time of testing they fall away, choked by lifes worries, riches, and pleasures… Luke 8, wow
Whoever has will be given more; whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. Luke 8 also
Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you. Be self controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know… God will restore you, make you strong, firm and steadfast. 1 Peter 5
Don’t worry, it wont be you speaking but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. If His eye is on the sparrow, then His heart is on me – a song, from Matthew 10
We live by faith, not by sight – 2 Corinthians 5
All my fountains are in you. – Psalm 86
I want to take your word and shine it all around, first help me just to live it Lord, and when I’m doing well help me to never seek the crown because my reward is giving glory to you. Kim walker – Jesus Culture – O Lord You’re beautiful
The desire of the righteous ends only in good – Proverbs 11
I’m okay with storms because I know the one who silences them. At the end of the day I’m with Him, and He wins. Faith, for the thing you cant see, waiting, Gods promises to His people never change. – AJ Jones, emanate at Grace center
When Peter fixed his eyes on what the wind was doing instead of Jesus, he was afraid and the began to sink (when he walked on water to Jesus) – also AJ Jones
We don’t have the full story, but He does, believe with an untroubled heart. Many times the Bible says – Don’t be afraid, just believe! – AJ Jones

One day I woke up feeling so secure in what God was doing with me, He gave me dreams of doing His good works, I knew I was secure, He has a plan and its coming!
I had a text from my amazing friend Molly – “Forever, O Lord, your word stands firm in heaven. Your faithfulness extends to every generation, like the earth you created. It decrees by your decree, EVERYTHING serves your plan. Psalm 119:89
Then a song played on my computer from Jesus Culture – I have a plan for you, its gonna be wild, its gonna be great, its gonna be full of ME.
I was reminded of a prophecy spoken over me just a few days before – that I was marked from birth for Gods plans – things that I cant even imagine, will happen with my life…
I saw random quotes on face book that were encouraging and fit into what God was saying to me! – like – life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. Or – Patience is a calm endurance based on the certain knowledge that God is in complete control.
Then Joshua texted me (prophecy without knowing it ☺) – you don’t need to worry about your future at all, its already been planned and the clock is ticking away and when it hits zero God is going to show you everything! Everything is going to fit perfectly! For that all to happen, for you to not worry or be afraid of your future or how you need a job, trust in God and ask Him! say – Daddy can you help me with a good job that I will enjoy and will help your kingdom?! I trust that you my heavenly Father will do this for me your daughter! – wow, just what I needed to hear…. He does have a plan…

The next morning I woke up feeling like God was saying He supports me, He reminded me of a picture He showed me in Africa of me with His hands on my back, supporting me… which I had a hard time accepting because, I haven’t liked the idea of God supporting ME, I couldn’t accept that He was proud of me, or thanked me for anything I had done, any ways I had trusted Him… that was too much for me to accept! But while I was in Africa I learned to accept His amazing love and affections this way!
Next I saw a quote on face book (again haha) “Apart from me you can do nothing!” and I felt like God was saying – if your plans are for good things, aligned with His ways, character and will, and I know I cant do it without Him (every moment) – He supports, helps, encourages us… this concept was still hard for me! –
I read Proverbs 13 - the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied – Psalm 89 – My hand will sustain him; surely my arm will strengthen him…. my faithful love will be with him, and through my name his horn will be exalted… - God supports my ways when they please Him!
Those who plan what is good find love and faithfulness. – Proverbs 14
May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us, Yes, establish the work of our hands. – Psalm 90
Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. – Proverbs 16
The Lord works out everything for His own ends. – Proverbs 16
In his heart a man plans his course but the Lord determines his steps. – Proverbs 16
The lot is cast into the lap, but every decision is from the Lord. – Proverbs 16
So God taught me first that He has it all, He is in control and I don’t need to worry because He will do it and I can rest in Him. also He taught me that HE supports ME, as hard as that is to accept and hear, as His daughter, He trusts me and when I walk with Him and in the Holy Spirit, He will give favor to my plans… so which is it? They in a way seem to contradict… He is in control, and He supports my plans… well I believe somehow both – His love is so for me, that He knows my heart and its motives, and ultimately He knows what I will plan anyways… so I can rest secure without worrying that I will plan the wrong thing and it will happen, as long as I am fully in Him, surrendered, in love, His daughter… He will make His plans succeed, as well as support my plans… they are one and the same as we become one with Him! so we rest secure, holding Jesus hand, knowing were free, knowing His grace, love and affections are so great for us, resting in His will with peace, feeling His love, waiting patiently, He within me is greater than he in the world, I’m Gods daughter, so delighted in, loved! Rest secure, plan according to Him with much prayer, and trust in His plan that is surely coming… do not let the enemy cause you to worry, and have negative thoughts to bring you away fro God whom you are secure in and can trust!